Have you ever wondered what it’s like to die?
People hate to use that word or think about it when
unfortunately or fortunately, it is inevitable. I do not see death as bad; just
like life, I see it as one more thing we have to do to complete the ‘why we are
on earth’ (now that’s gist for another day). Death like life is one of the
stages unfortunately, one starts it and the other ends it (maybe cause if there
is life after death, then it starts another phase).
It’s called temporary sleep meaning it is not bad at all
cause sleep makes us rest, makes us forget the worries of the world and starts
a ‘new beginning’ which most times is better. My only worry about death that
makes it painful sometimes is when a young life is taken. It hurts me especially
when I know that person did not even have a chance at happiness or goodness on
earth. Why? Keeps coming up especially if he/she died a painful death; I
believe so much in the teachings of the bible and at most times, I wonder if it’s
an atonement of the sins of the parents.
My younger brother died a painful death, I mourned for
months cause I could not comprehend why he had to die so painful. I wondered,
what his mum did or what did my dad do that he had to suffer so much before his
death as atonement for their sin(s). I read about a 12years old girl (long time
ago) that died of cancer. It touched me deeply- WHY. Premature death is
painful, painful especially when the young had so much to give, to live for and
was so lively. Yet, death is inevitable and I think of my own end.
Will I have the chance to know I am dying? Will I be given
the chance to love and forgive and be forgiven before I die? Death can be
tricky but I want to be more tricky that it.
When an elderly person dies, I feel nothing. One, they had
lived, they had enjoyed they had the chance to change, to build, to commit so
now, they can GO. Death is not bad when we accept that is the reason why we
live. If you enjoy life, you should enjoy death cause the two go hand in hand.
Funny, they say people write about their death. I am not writing about mine. I am
just saying since we all know that it is coming and we do not know when, we
should learn to appreciate life and death and do what is right so that when we
are gone, we know we ACHIEVED our purpose in life (story for another day).
I have wondered about life after, I do not understand why we
can not figure what is on the other side. I have had dreams of death, saw my
dead family/friend in dreams, talked to them but it still did not give me a
glimpse of what death is about. If it is a permanent sleep, then it’s peaceful
and unknowing cause most dreams, you do not know is a dream until you wake up –that
means, I might never know if I am dead. Maybe this is the life after, who
knows. I have always felt I lived before now. Knew what and who I was, I can
feel what I did and why I am back so yes, I believe in reincarnation. You just
know, I have lived before do not ask me if I am clairvoyant.
Now, appreciate death, live to die, do what is right by you
and by the good of all. Let’s make our death count when we leave.
TATA
(Dedicated to Kennedy (I will always miss you), Jibu,
Blessing, Lola, Ogo, Tosin, my dad, Ona’s dad: May their soul’s rest in perfect
peace. Amen)