Story of my Life!

When you have a near death experience, u tend to appreciate life more and understand the reason to do good and be happy always.

As a lady, there are 2tins I fear the most rape and drowning. Rape cos I feel I would not be able to leave with myself hence might fight them till they kill me and drowning cos I don’t want to die a painful death; one I can’t try to fight and win…a lost course.

Two days ago, I was robbed, the thieves actually drove off with me and the only thing I could think of is..is this the end? What can I do to salvage this. Luckily for me the car had a flat tire not far from where I was apprehended and I was abandoned with the car. I keep thinking to myself ‘what if’ an if I really don’t want to find out about.

It’s true the stories going on, if u get hit by a car at night, speed off don’t stop. It’s the new tactics with robbers.

Till my poems and short stories surface again, do keep in touch on the group ENIGMA on facebook. Cheers.

Christmas Blues!

Christmas is synonymous to rebirth, renewal and joy.

We forget the past and try make a new,

Great tidings and goodwill shared.

Hopes renewed from lost dreams

And friends forgotten as enemies

While enemies stale newbies

A blink of fresh air

Received with hope for brighter things

Sacrificed on promises old

Lifting ones so new

Yes! I welcome the blues

With red, white and green

Spirits and wines

Grace my tables and dines

With hope for a prosperous year

One I know I alone can bear.

The joy i feel

Lost pride gained in a second

In a term of pain and agony

15years of strive

Yet fulfilled like I planned it so well

Niceties of a scourged heart

Steamy, flowing down

Awaken to the very love

That rejected the vacuum

Speak louder than an empty drum

For in it, a voice is heard

And the sound enriches the soul

A cry now a smile

That consumes the heart in space

A 1000 starts of eternity

A name planted for ever

Springing wealth and happiness

Dance with me eternal happiness

For what gladness is born!

Lies!

The heart lies when u let it

 The eyes see what u want it

The brain decipher what u want it to

The truth though stares us in the face

Sucking deep into us

Draining our blood

Cutting the oxygen

Choking us to death

At every instance

We feel the throb

The want to be true

But the lies smiles,

Giving us a temporary breath

Of sweetness we can imagine

Yet! We know it would end

Cos the truth like the sun

Would come out to play

Burning our very skin

Sinking us deep into the abyss

The truth hurts yes!

But it’s safer than 3minutes of a lie.

Live for something!

Life sometimes plans ahead the things we have in mind but haven’t had the heart to achieve. The “Secrets” put in place the value of the inner being in us. The strength, the faith, the believe: haven’t you noticed that when u strongly believe u would get something, u almost always get it?

The mind is a strong part of who we are, the inner us. To know this, to control it would bring wealth and happiness. Negative thoughts aren’t good for health or wealth. Knowing ur strength within is as important as knowing ur name; ur life counts on every aspect of u.

Knowing what u are capable of paves a part for u to realize what u can and cannot do hence, you have to carve out what u want to achieve. This would determine how u would live ur life, the path u’ll take and the things u would achieve.

If ur heart and mind works in a direction u choose but ur visual action takes a route someone else tells u to, it always works out wrong for u - this someone else might be culture, parents, society, friends even lovers. They think they know what’s best for u and lead u or urge u in a path ur heart and mind is against. Until u face the truth within, happiness would forever elude u but yes, u’ll please them and they’ll die happy and u…would live in misery.

Total happiness comes from telling urself what u want and living it. Sit and think for a while without disturbance and ask urself WHAT MAKES U HAPPY? 3days in a week is enough for self realization. Calculating ur path, for nothing is worth ur happiness cos in the end, it’s all u’ll live for.

Have u ever thought of judgment day? If it’s real, how would u feel when u are cast to hell for so many things u did just to please others? Believe me, it’s worth eternal damnation when u do it for u: live for yourself.

Believe in urself, work on ur happiness and do all that will make u happy for in the end, nothing matters. We live with little knowledge of why we are really on earth. Yes, religion has given us so many reasons, but deep down, they really can’t answer the question - why are we on earth? So for all it’s worth, do what u want but while u at it, be in harmony with the people around u for mother nature respects every individual and expects u to do the same as we need each other in this faceless journey.

Respect others feelings and their belief. We each have our will hence our belief are different. In   religion, good and evil have been defined in the exact terms. It tells one thing, there really is GOOD and EVIL. Don’t force anyone to live ur belief and don’t force urself to live any other persons belief. Just try to accept theirs, make them understand urs and if u both can’t live with ur difference… u can always find new friends and family who believe in what u believe in – DON’T FORCE IT.

Good – You are in harmony with others in ur pursuit of happiness

Evil – You are not in harmony with others in ur pursuit of happiness

Live ur life!

It’s easy to just pass through the day like nothing matters but the reality would creep up on you again tomorrow and then, I want to see u dodge that.

Life gives us dirts but the good thing is God gave us a sieve to filter out what we don’t want. Yes! Our will is paramount to our existence and happiness that’s why I don’t believe in what others call good and evil. I have my will and I would use it judiciously and one way ama do that, is by creating my OWN good and evil.

My views are:

• ·         Do unto others what you want them to do unto you.
• ·         Have fun so far it don’t hurt no one in the process.
• ·         Do want you want and not what others want you to do
• ·         Bend very low to kiss ass so that when you make it, you’ll remember the back ache and make sure you don’t have to bend that low again
• ·         Be humble when dealing with a powerful enemy; learn his tricks and strike when he least expects.
• ·         If he is still more powerful, never let him know the strike was from you, just enjoy it in ur privacy
• ·         Not all revenge should be left for GOD. There are some u just gats to pay on ur own.
• ·         Revenge is sweet when served very cold so be very prepared to deal with the consequence
• ·         Make sure your revenge is 100% worth it so that u won’t feel the consequence when it comes cos it surely will.
• ·         Think well before carrying out a revenge; don’t do what u’ll regret
• ·         Be kind to everyone even when they are not kind to you cos one day, they’ll need u and then their guilt would hunt them.(sweet punishment)
• ·         If others u call dear don’t do you good, find new peeps cos they don’t care abt u
• ·         If u have a view peeps tink not good, trust me it’s a good view n they are jealous u thot of it first
• ·         Don’t do what everyone else is doing except it makes u happy too
• ·         Believe me, you’ll die alone cos u were born alone so do WHAT U WANT!
• ·         Live like you might die tomorrow cos in truth, u might die tomorrow
• ·         Don’t wait till u get old to wish you did what u shld have as a youth
• ·         Believe me, age is just a number, fun, education and happiness don’t care abt how old u are
• ·         Its never to late to start again so just start all over if u wanna
• ·         BE YOU! So dat if judgment is real, u would be able to defend urself properly
• Love always don't live on past hurt cos happiness is fullest when u inlove.

With all that said, follow the 2major commandments from our Christ; love others as you love yourself and love GOD above everything else.

*PS: live like you wanna!

Nightmares

I slept days with nightmares

Gracing my pillows

Kissing my lips

I wonder if I hurt the world

With stings so painful

If a time I came

To quench waters so tasteful

If rebels await

My horse of horrors

If I were a king

The land hated with fear filled eyes

This time I awake

With no sweat on my head

With no chest to cry on

A smile on my face

For I know the next to take

Paths I always thread

With a will stronger than any

A curse none wish for

But one I see as a blessing

May be I was bold

As the wolves n their pack

May be I was dreaded

Like the lions in their steed

One thing I know

Then I was at peace

With the inner me

And none could please or hurt

Then I had a heart

Filled in a cooler with ice

Then I knew

That a pace I had kept

One non could catch up with

Its short I know

But I woke up just too soon

And long I would be awake

To sleep no more

In the Heat!

Slowly, I inhale the hardness
The stillness scares
The firmness captivates
If only, I thought!
The actions where defined
If only, I said out loud
I could turn and resist
Mine could be easy
A part carved in silver
None could receive
This gift and not shiver
Sailing through the wetness
In an undisclosed calmness
No its not tears,
My eyes where shaped to rain
Get your dirty minds of the closet

Cause for real am crying not fucking!

The Madness!

It all started like a dream. Moments flash before my eyes like fast race car speeding. Nothing could be so blissful, nothing could be so real. But the thought of it all brought sweetness to my lips. The hurt forgotten, the pain a past; now the time is here and here forever. I basked in total awesomeness from the goodness that showers my heart, yet like a dream, I refuse to wake for fear of realizing the truth.

Am not stupid no, just cautious and enjoying the game, the fun, the life. Don’t mistake my freeness for dumbness it’s me, I live like I wanna, always. Strolling down, I realize the thought I taught myself; enjoy all u can always. A lesson I learnt while trying to please.

If I step and fall, I alone feel the pain and where it hurts the most; Never the less, am not selfish with my joy and share it for others to experience. Blinking back memories, I search deep into the future, realizing the stake, the nail and the hammer. Have driven the nail too deep that it can’t be taken out anymore.

A ramble you might say, but I laugh for knowledge of my madness. Yes! My madness, that confuses but enlightens. A madness rare and incurable and when it affects others they hate and love. A madness I tamed to suit the abyss of the emotions I render. One you want but hate cause you can’t have. One everyone wishes for but none but me can hold.

Don’t get lost, find your way if you can in my maze. Am a rare edition, a parable on the lips of the wise. An enemy you love and a friend you cherish. Maybe a return of a void, maybe a relapse of a threat all I know, its existence isn’t new to the eras.

Have I succeeded in sinking you? Yeh! Am the best in such madness.

*teethy grin.

Calling all creative minds!

I remember a friend telling me he is a writer and I asked really, how many of your works have you published and he is like I have over a hundred online; a website where writers especially poets are urged to send their works to win prices and even get published. I felt it was a good way to get my works out there since it’s difficult to get the finances or the audience you need to read your work. Not for money but for appreciation hence, my contributing to that site and boasting of three of my works online with two published in 2different poetry books I never got to see but a friend did and I enjoyed the recognition.

Now, if we had such a chance in our country to showcase our works by just doing what we love to do, not spending a dime, won’t you seize the opportunity?

Join me on Enigma let’s make this change. Calling on all creative minds!

Put ur heart in it!

I always wonder what it takes for one to find out what their calling is. And when I say calling, I don’t mean to the altar. I mean what you are good at that u can use to make a change in the world and also make you happy and satisfied.

It’s easy to just go along like everyone else in a job where u don’t find self satisfaction just the money worth but after about 2years you depreciate and feel sad cos what you are doing isn’t giving u the pleasure u deserve and then ur life becomes miserable and u start looking for a way out.

On the other hand, if you are working on what gives you pleasure, no matter the stress, the pain or set back that comes with it, you’ll always feel happy and satisfied.

I love to write as much as I love to counsel. I love to dance as much as I love to create – create either dance forms, stage drama, poetry or even a party event.

What do u like to do? What is your passion? Can we find it together and achieve what u so long for? Join me and let’s work a way round it.

If u could, would you run with it?

Yes! we have different talents in us that we'd love to showcase to the world yet, the economical situation in Nigeria forbids us this simple necessity to excel in a field we would love to explore.
The difficulty of finding the funds or the source needed to improve on the dream; Greed and sentiments steals our shine and we die with the talent we are given to share. Abroad, we see, read or view how avenues are created for the youths to make use of their talents. We hold in our heart that which would make us happy but we can't unleash it for fear of the known - funds, environment, criticism ETC.
The Enigma is born to help us try to achieve, if only for once, that dream we so long to share and birth into the world.
Join us and let's make this a reality as we have fun, painting a new song in the sky.

The wake-up call!

A soft scream escape my lips as I stare dreamily into space.
I turn to look into the eyes of my victim as I noticed the ring on my finger. Getting up was a bit of stress but I knew I had to get my head cleared from all this insanity.

‘Come to bed’

He called,

‘You still need to punish me’.

I smile and turn away. Walking towards the bathroom, kicking the door open.

Staring into the mirror brought shame to my face. Why did love have to hurt so? Why did it have to be so rigid and selfish? The cold splash of water brought me back to life, to the sound of a can open.

‘For you dearie, am sure you are exhausted’.

He poured the cold drink into my mouth as I let some slip down my bare chest, flowing like a river finding a path, giving my swollen nipples a tingle.

‘Let’s do it again’ I purred ‘I feel energized’.

He led me back to the bed with his arms on my butt squeezing hard; fingers dig into my skin, getting me all wet.

‘Cuff me’ I cried, ‘I need to be punished, CUFF ME!’

I feel the hard whip tear into my skin as I scream out in mixed pleasure. Flashes of him keep ruining my senses. I scream again in terror as I see him weep at my feet, pouring out his heart, offering me his soul.

‘I don’t deserve him’ I scream, crying uncontrollable. ‘PUNISH ME!’

I cried out again as I felt it hard entering into my rear. His face crawled round to my nipples, biting hard, as HE rammed harder. My scream fills the air.


Releasing his guts, he spoke breathless into my ears

‘You lovely deary, no other like you’.

Falling on me after his last jerk making me fall on him as his teeth sunk into my chest. Their snores break the silence as I hear a whisper, crying, saying

‘why me, why me?’

I replied,

‘I’m sorry baby, I just don’t deserve love from you. Am sorry you love me so’

I watched his ring of affection slip from my middle finger into the water cistern.

‘Why did you have to propose, why are you trapping me?’

The sound of water flushing brought me back to life as I realised the TRUTH. I screamed in total terror, my hands in the toilet bowl swimming, looking for my love, looking for what made me ...SANE!

Unleash your passion!

In Nigeria, we dream big as kids especially after watching a creative stunt on tv. Be it a movie, song or game. Then we grow up and life in 9ja forces us to pursue other dreams but we keep dreaming in our quiet moments about our inner talent, how we would love to unleash it and let the millions roll in as we see on TV yet, the fear of the unknown keeps our talent buried inside. And we sometimes grow old and die wondering if we had the chance to unleash our talent how would life have been for us.

I grew up dreaming of being a world class choreographer and singer, with age, the singing died but the dancing didn't and i majored in it. Coming out to this cruel world made me realize "dance no go put food always for my table". so i jumped into another passion"writing". till i nurse that passion inside.

I know alot of us have such hidden desires; talents we want to show the world we are good at and can be better at. Let's do this people, lets share our passion, our fears and our dreams in my group called ENIGMA on facebook. Let's see how we can come together and birth our desires. Let's take that leap of faith, be adventurous and try, try and see if we can live our hearts desires and make it work. So we can grow old with a smile on our face.

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